My Cassiopeia

the evening is so fresh

At first glance it seems as though there is nothing

Emptiness, coldness, an endless abyss;

the breeze of night, the silver lights

smudging in the sky, twinkling;

counting satellites of memories

that turns into a black smog of the city.

 

orion, his belt i saw creating a

divided line to the wide pad of night,

pink clouds overlapping, blurry eyes

of mine can see only abstract;

drawing your name by connecting

lines of each stars, and i saw you

smiling while laying under the

theater of lights.

 

where is my queen? i asked

where are you, because im here

im here watching you, are you alright?

are you okay?

then i closed my eyes for a while;

after a minute open my eyes to everything

that could be and then as though the suffering

within me would burst. and i said

i wont give up like satellites dont fall down

in night of storms and rains, they are hiding behind

watching and waiting for the right time

to twinkle and to show again.

 

the world tilting as life goes,

in day of full of brightness of sun,

i cannot see you or hear you singing

but i know that you are always there

in the other side of the world, twinkling,

shows your heat creating a glimmering

colors of blue and red fire.

every night i always searching for

you Cassiopeia, my favorite

my one only true love, my inspiration

in every sleepless nights of studying,

of reviewing, working, and my everything.

 

im always here for you, caring.

Ikaw at ang Hinaharap

ang sarap ng pakiramdaman ng wala kang inaatupag kundi ang sarili mo at ang hinaharap mo.

dahil alam mo sa sarili mo pagkatapos ng lahat ikaw lang magisa ang makakaunawa at dadamay  sa sarili mo at hindi ang ibang tao.

Day 6 (Last Day)

Life!

we live as we want

we experienced the worlds

creature, we have the freedom

to choose how to react;

disheartened and feeling the blues,

the road to happiness seems to be enigmatic,

in this crystal maze of life

the game goes on until the end.

 

Death!

absent to our body means

to present ourselves to our lord,

he’s always there — watching, staring

to our world.

he’s life has now passed away

with the Lord today

enjoying a better life anew.

 

Goodbye!

remember that time together,

like breeze of joy that came and passed

now at the road’s end,

to choose our way and ourselves to mend.

our God will make up for this loss,

And maybe in future our roads will cross.

i thank you for moments that we shared,

and for us, so much, you loved and cared.

 

Goodbye Uncle! Thank you

Day 5

Sickness!

we are here sleepless nights,

not working nor studying, but

to guard our beloved in-tight;

we are not there, to enjoy the flight,

but to enjoy together

with sorrows and pains

in our heart.

 

Sacrifice!

giving a willingness of self

a chance that God has given,

to touch another person’s

heart and soul in-kind;

to touch life of another

to carry the aches and pains’

of loving sacrifice.

 

Love!

its not for two

but for all, its voluntary

not conditional;

we dont have to expect a return,

but doing some efforts by staying

in this chapel with the one you love

in this coffin,  a form of beyond love.

 

Day 4

Accompany!

friend’s companionship of heart’s

rapid and collusion;

caring for someone, not

in their direction,

of feelings in-calm

struggling — their contention.

 

Conversation!

words that forms

beyond meaning and thoughts;

asking, doubting, telling

the letters of aches they fought,

no one but others can

convert the shallowness and cold.

 

Silence!

talking… can you hear that?

it says something,

the lines between air and space

the vacuum between them;

hear, glimpse, reach without talk.

Day 3

Question!

a battle cry of our mind,

searching answer of irritated

heart that-rewind,

the truth that lies

above our head — in mind.

 

Share

act of unconditional filling

of excess to something,

to help the others from

crumpling of consciousness, to nothing.

forever and never stacked from

strikes of lightning.

 

Faith!

doing the impossibility of nature

to possibility,

the words into a something

that transcend to immaterial world.

our feet float, he told;

gives meaning beyond untold.

Day 2

Sympathy!

a social responsibility of every

individual,

a benevolent act of someone

to something, or another.

a empty feeling of something,

converts to empathy of everything.

 

Serve!

filling smiles of a broken heart,

distorted curves and angles

of face and nerves.

putting, holding, reaching others hand

to build a new shape of gland.

 

Create!

forming but not destructing

the original way of life,

making direction of reality

into your usual path;

by facing the doubt of

present, the fogs of

our ends in-high.

 

Day 1

Pretending!

the hardest thing to do

hiding the tears and pains

of silence in this chapel,

i cannot hear angels singing

nor the bells ringing of chimes

in the ceiling.

all i can hear is silence,

the silence of the feelings.

 

Truth!

a ambiguous word of reality.

the shallow of light all i can see

of real things of happenings.

is it lack of real lights

the hues, or the brightness?

we do not know, but to reflect

of shallowness.

 

Emotion!

immaterial secretion of fluids

flowing like a river of mind and body,

hearts trembling, reaching the point

of limitation;

smiling of poker face, sighs, snores,

and the sounds of crying unto this place.