BENEATH YOUR BEAUTIFUL

A day of summer you came by

You are cold that night I asked

How are you? Then you replied

I do not deserve what I feel.


You are pluvial on the midst of heat

Hale it seems you see that day

But I hugged you to lessen the pain

And I want to hold your arm longer tight.


We had a great days together

Waving your shoal to the breeze of night,

While exchanging of thoughts smooth sailing

In the open wide ocean – starting to like you.


You came at that point I should care

You are brilliant and precious to my sight,

Shining as diamond you have valued – priceless

I thought it was not easy but I tried, forgive me.


You are beautiful inside and out

But it seems the shoe does not fit the time

I overthink the possibilities we will be

But in the end, I cannot be longer and tight.


I hope the days come easy

The moments goes slow,

Each avenue leads you where you want to go,

And if you're faced with a choice,

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

-For TepTep


Christopher P. Taguinod

May 20, 2016

10:38PM

LOVING YOU… QUIETLY.

Watching you from a distance of love and care

Sitting here beside you while sleeping far away

Keeping you in-safe and let the star be dreamed

Together with this word, I stay.

Your eyes wishing you can see me again

Your hair waiving in this breeze of cold night

The glimpse of every shadow of your thoughts

Your vision, your lips, and your mist of beautiful-ness.

Owls woos and everything is strange

But here is my palm to cover your ears

And let the dreaming songs of future

You can hear with my intentions.

Darkness coming as night fall down

Making you scared in every move you will make,

But here is my hand, waiting for you to hold

And light up your doubts and worries.

When you are in fear, let my songs be heard

As time passing by you will hear my heart

Full of shines and glitters, and you will see

The night out of tears.

I will hug you when you are down and tired

Joy filled of warming and raging love,

I walk with you and make you laugh all times

Like nothing else but you and me.

Hold your hand and kiss it like a true hero

Happiness on your smile and success

Let me think of you and see with no one else

With this rope of roses I climb and il be there.

Let me be there every day on your life

Staring with you all night

Watching while you are humming,

Watching you while you are dreaming.

I can’t promise the stars in the night sky

To go over you, but I can always caring while

others ignoring, and I can always be there

For you and caring quietly.

By Christopher P. Taguinod

For You.

March 19, 2016

2:44am

IN REPLY TO OPINION MADE BY MS. STE FI ON FACEBOOK LAST MARCH 6, 2016:

To summarize the statement she generalize the scenario as if there’s no crime committed, there is a crime! Person died! But the question here who killed Edgel Jhoy Durolfo? I agree with her opinion that Rodney and other persons involved are innocent until the contrary is proved based on her constitutional right (ART III, Sec. 14 par. 2). Considering the scenario and police reports declared the four as person of interests, now accused/s, because they are present inside the room and actually saw what really happened that day.

Some points she failed to consider are the following:

First, Rodney’s affidavit during the investigation of Solaire certainly stated that Edgel took Ecstacy and caused of her death, but he failed to state who bought the E? is it Rodney or other person? We don’t know. That proves that the issue of “E” might be an alibi to seal the whole scenario. Then who is the burden of proof on that issue? The person who alleged has the burden of proof, except otherwise provided by law. Rodney’s camp alleged that overdose of E is the cause of death but failed to state the root where, when, who, why, and how they bought the E. that concludes inconsistency to his statements. Now, what are the side effects of using E? Muscle breakdown, Faintness, Kidney and Cardiovascular Failure, Seizures, or worst Death. But based on the visual claim of the hospital Edgel has several wounds and black spots or bruises on legs, arms, and other parts of the body. The question again here what are the causes of that bruises? Again, in the affidavit of Rodney, he states the cause of the bruises is by way of carrying of edgel. Here, there is a mumbling mind of the accused to prove the reason of the bruises, a physical therapist told me, that bruises is possible if there is a tight grip to the part of the body but cannot be by carrying only and also reports said Rodney did not carry Edgel but supporting her to walk and requesting for a wheelchair. Again, inconsistencies arises.

Second, Official Police Report released the autopsy report and state that the cause of death of Edgel is by means of Asphyxia by Manual Strangulation. Here comes Ste Fi’s argument “the girl to the hospital at about 3:30 am and she passed away at about past noon on the same day. It defies logic then that the boyfriend strangled her, then rushed her to the hospital and died hours later. So the question is, if she died in the hospital several hours later and if it was indeed strangulation, who strangled her there?” Ste Fi does not know the medical implication of Asphyxia. It means, a condition of severely deficient supply of oxygen to the body that arises from abnormal breathing, also all of which are characterized by an inability of an individual to acquire sufficient oxygen through breathing for an extended period of time. To short it, even if a person are breathing but acquiring insufficient oxygen to breath is another form of  ASPHYXIA! Again, the question here what are the cause of insufficiency of oxygen to breathe? And that might the proximate cause of her death, proximate cause means in the case of Villacar Transit vs. Catubig that it is that cause, in the natural and continuous sequence, unbroken by any efficient intervening cause, produces the injury, and without which the result would not have occurred. Applying the Autopsy report of the police Asphyxia by Manual Strangulation is the proximate cause of Edgel’s death even if there is an interval period of time of 10 hours, without such Manual Strangulation the result of Asphyxia would not have occurred.

Third, in Ste Fi’s argument “Rodney is in hiding. This is absolutely a lie. Rodney went to the wake only to be given a cold shoulder by the girl’s mother. While it is understandable to be in deep sorrow and mourning for a child’s loss, it is unthinkable to pin someone else’s child of a crime he did not commit, let alone announce it on national television.” I disagree with her, Rodney came to the wake not only to see his fiancé for the last time but also to settle and pay all the expenses of the family. I hope this statement will be inserted in the affidavit of the prosecution because in criminal cases, except involving quasi-offenses or those allowed by law to compromised, an OFFER OF COMPROMISE (meaning to settle or payment of all the expenses) by the accused may be received in evidence as IMPLIED ADMISSION OF GUILT (Rule 130, Sec. 27, par. 2 of the Rules of Court). Meaning to say, all the statements and declarations may be given evidence against him.

Fourth, Ste Fi’s argument “silence on Rodney’s part means guilt. This is absolutely not true. Amid all the uproar, Rodney’s legal counsel could have advised him to respond to allegations at the right time and the right place.” I agree with her, Rodney has a constitutional right to remain silent, but to rebut this lady old faggot na nagmamarunong, sometimes silence is admission of statement and declarations it may given in evidence against him based on Rule 130, Sec. 32 of the Rules of Court that he has the liberty to make the denials knowing and understood the allegations but failed to do so.

And Lastly, Ms. Ste Fi if your knowledge is not good enough then think before you click. This case is a very sensitive case because person died and all we want is Justice will be served at the end.

Posting this just to show that some of Ste Fi’s opinion aren’t true! And not good enough to make admissible. We are trusting the rule of justice in this country and lets leave to the officer the tragic death of our friend edgel. Saying your opinion does not conclude injustice or justice but being curios what will happen next.

 

#PrayForEdgel

#JusticeForEdgel

 

P.S.

Please don’t share this on FB or other networking sites let the rule of law will prevail on this matter. Read privately.

di pa na proofread. tinatamad ako

 

Me on Valentines Day.

ADMIT OR RELEASE

Heartbeat… on her stethoscope
she said “hi”
the first time
we converse each other,
my precious time with her.

Numbness of emotions I felt
before that day,
but you did respond;
giving me hope and took
away the Anesthesia to my blood.

You Biopsied my chest
and see if my artery is functioning well,
if my heart is dead or palpitating
but you see no life,
rotting in the age of past.

I took Paracetamol twice a day
to relieve this trouble of my thoughts;
outbursts of creativity and
crazy wandering thoughts,
but you bring these thoughts into order,
and let this mind be.

I’m not asking you to stay with me
nor assuming that you and I
are meant for each other;
all I want is to see the future
LASIK my eyesight to see your smile.

No idea if this is Arrhythmia
or just beating so fast, but all
I experiencing is happiness,
a symptom called Love.

February 11, 2016

11:48am

Waiting In-Time.

I wish time can bear the love
so sweet and serenity of eternal
everyday-ness of my soul,
the beat of it, the care i can give;
live until the day come you will
say the real you can see.

My smile is so simple, yet so great
that day you said hi and filled
hope to my joy shall overtake us as a flood;
when every thing that is sincerely good
and perfectly divine.

I cant say when it will be,
i assume the river will flow to my desire,
the true and certainty of feelings
in-time i can give to you the wholeness
of something special.

Slowly, pieces of time slip away
and drift through the streets
with no obvious fanfare;
like a creature of silence passing
under the midnight stars.

I will wait for you in-time
if you are ready to show the
light between the grayness of colors,
the moment of mutual caress,
your hands full of rejoice and happiness.

Time called me one fine day,
asked me to walk along,
to see the beauty of something
not to run but to stare for awhile,
look and grasp every little piece of
time we shared – our destiny.

I know it is almost evening,
But the twilight hour is long.
use my shoulder to lean on, my hands
to keep on, my hugs and kisses that comforts,
and my eyes to believe on it.

If life is short, I can extend my effort into
everything which is good behind my intentions
close your eyes and feel the words whispering;
I can say “I will wait for you” but
the thing is “Im Always Here For You”.

Christopher P. Taguinod
December 25, 2014
11:12pm

An Open Letter to the Couple who once I Called “Brod and Sis”.

Many of you will interpret this as “Bitter Message”, maybe it is my Sweet message to say my “Goodluck” to the couple who once I called “Brod and Sis”. As Britney said “Oops! I did it again! Yes it happened again. Holding the future without the assurance of certainty, giving your time without knowing what time is it. Right now, I consider myself as Matured Being, not affected by things which I know not necessary to grow as a human being. Only Beggars who are searching something on the Trash of another (a metaphor).

Four Months ago, a lady in red walking in the isle of the library who caught my attention… Who is She? I asked myself. On that moment, I feel the strange of happiness. Strange of Happiness means a shallow reason why you keep taking your Happiness as premisses without even knowing the conclusion of the situation. The reason why IN TIME I WISH this sonum bonum can create the new dimension of my personality. Instead, I grasped the Conclusion in inductive form for me to know if this premisses can hold water. I ordered 1 piece chicken + extra rice + Baked Mac with 8 o’clock juice every evening just to taste the sweetness of it, and walked 100 or 200 meters just to see the light beyond this feeling. But I think that is not enough if your competitor is reading Shun Tzu’s Art of War – a marketer, who can say persuasive words to induce you.

I am a victim of Qualified Theft falling under the circumstance of Grave Abuse Of Confidence. But instead of filing a complaint, I choose to intake every acts of depriving my assets – the thing I called Hope. So I applied the doctrine of Last Clear-Chance, not to take any chances for me not to be held liable on every actions I will make. That is not an act of immaturity, but an act of courage and an act of a sophisticated person. I dont live in the jungle who you can turn the Shit into BullShit! I live in the world of material, the reality, the existence of possiblities, the only surface who can turn your “Wish” into “Dream”. And I dont like facing “Snakes” that’s not my thing, instead I avoided them just because I dont like Snakes.

Its A thing speaks for itself! Res Ipsa Loquitor. Existence precedes Essence, your Actions precedes Maners. Words are deceiving – you can say whatever you want but behind those words you are whistling with no sounds whispering (a metaphor). Im asking myself why? Perhaps I dont know or I dont care. I dont believe superheroes in comics or in movies, I can be a superhero by helping the poor without any condition or any compensation, but WTF are you serious? That was so fast! (The Flash) you can do that? Since when? 2 or 3 weeks or 1 week ago? Ow btw its a nonsense question… you just did! Love takes time to build, if you are serious and ready to take the consequences, the effects of your principles and goals in life, then you are green to go. But if you are not sure or against the will of your second ego, then you only want to show the pussy on the chainwax (a metaphor) – actus me invito factus non est meus actus.

In this new generation or era, you can see the Immaturity of a certain person not only to her acts, but also by Blocking your account in her Facebook Account. Woow! I dont see the point! like kissing – touching your lips into one another, I dont see the point! Exchanging of saliva? Thanks for blocking my account… and I think thats a good news! Again The Thing speaks for itself, adversus solem ne loquitor.

Life is unfair! But its a NO! You can say that if you are not ready to take the consequences of your causes. For me, its a Challenge! And im excited to face it. They said, Im a Sui Generis, a class of its own, I worked hard, I danced with two feet, and I dont like smelling shits to know the genuine existence of it, ad altiora tendo.

I did not write this message just because you chose the other, but rather to explore things and an evidence that Shit happens! As Charles Sanders Peirce on his Philosophy “In all wisdom, experiences are the best”. And now, if you are asking me again, the day I saw you in the Isle of library towards me, ad meliora, raising your hands and say “hi”, will I say “hello”? Or just ignore you and walk like nothing happens? Questions are the reason why we are here, without it, we are only staring each other – no intervention, no identity, there will be no exams or trials, and no “you” in my life. Again, if I had a chance that day to say hello, I would rather say “Thank you” instead of introducing myself, but not Goodbye.

P.S. Tamad na ako mag proof read. Kayo nalang mag adjust! Haha

Observation and Experiences – subject to refute.

-CPT

I Guess, A Secret Admirer.

I guess I’m your secret admirer
That name seems to fit just right
I don’t know what I like about you
But you’re on my mind, day and night.

But there is  part of me that just can’t take that chance
So I doubt that you willl ever know
Which may be fine with you, but it’s hurting me
I choose not to show it though, for now.

Maybe it’s the way you say my name
Or maybe it’s the way you smile
Then again it might just be everything
Getting to know you seems worth my while.

You have given me hope for a better tomorrow
like an angel guiding me out of my sorrow.
My fears I want to let go
but can my past I forgo?

I ask you this as you have my heart
will you always be there so we may never part?
I don’t have much to give
but I will give you my everyday to live.

But I guess I’ll never know what it is
My true feelings I could never reveal to you
I’ll just admire you from a distance
I’m not sure what else there is to do.

Things I Can Do.

I wish there was something
I could do…
To wipe those worries and sadness,
The anxieties and madness
The tears on your eyes…
The hurt inside of coldness.

Your smile is been gone for far too long,
Forget about the past,
Let the future guide you,
Tell me what you like to do,
Show me your favorite song,
Let your Trust,
Really who cares what’s right or wrong.

I would really rather see you Smiling
With a Glad on your face,
Or laughing so much that your stomach cramps up
And your sanity is misplaced.
I would really rather see you savoring
The thing people call “today”,
Or puts on air your stride with confidence,
Knowing you will not lose your way.

I would hate to see you feeling depressed
Or empty or confused.
I would hate to see you losing hope
Or faith in what you choose.
I would hate to see you giving up
Because life does get hard.
And I would also hate to see you get hurt
Or by others marred.

We argue sometimes
Our thoughts and Minds are fighting
A little thing called “Misunderstanding”
All we hear is a “sorry”
But that doesn’t mean like we mean it,
We mean anything like for better
To learn from it, to manifest what it feels.

But it’s just a Storm passing by
Darkening the roads of happiness
Shades Of Gray Clouds falling to us
The midst of Waves Crashing by
But I’m waiting for the sounds of humming birds
The Rainbow beneath the songs of Goodnight.

With these words I promise
I’m sure that you can
And I’m sure that you will
Because this is the only thing I can do
And the thing I will do
I’m Always Here For You.

-CPT-

Christopher P. Taguinod
I forgot the real date.

To My Future Girlfriend.

To my future,

I know its so hard to live until the day you came in my life. 20 years of studying and no one there to comfort my extra time, and thanks for considering the fact that i need your time, for me to inspire more in my studies. Actually everything I do is for you. And I know when the day come, I need to be more thrifty in weekdays so that when the weekend come its time to enjoy a lil bit massage and spa or even a cup of coffee together with you. When you feel down and not in a mood, I’ll pinch your nose until it turn into red, and say “Dont feel upset you are clown now”.

And when the problem is simple, I will argue you and say anything opposite things until your brain burst and surrender “I won this Debate!” but deep inside you have won to my heart. Dont feel upset when I texted you like 10 times in the morning just to greet you on your first glimpse of your eyes everyday and 20 times in the evening just to feel my presence and will take care of you while you are sleeping. When you are doing something, I will text you a non-sensical random questions like “why is the rainy clouds color pink at night?” “you see the moon tonight? it says hi to you!” just to feel comfortable and less stress on what you are doing. And when you woke up in the morning and taking your rest in the evening without any text or call from me, understand that Im busy doing something, but take this to your mind that Im always thinking of you even though Im busy.

And when you like Cats or Dogs, I will buy a Pig! and i know you will laugh when you see it. And when we are together reading in a coffee shop Im sorry if Im interrupting you and you will have been looking for me every 30 mins, but honestly Im looking at you like in every 10 mins and observing your lips, your eyes, and your hair and then i smile; and when you found out that Im observing you, I immediately keeping out of my look like nothings happened. And when your taking your nap, i will get your Cellphone and will take a Selfie and make it a wall paper! so that when you are awake already you will smile at my wacky face. And when you want a Dummy for your studies you can use my palm as a scratch paper or my face for you to remember your readings.

And when you see my hands are full of wounds, do not worry maybe Im just busy caring my roses plants just to send it to you on Valentines Day. And when you are calling in the middle of the class I will take my rest and go outside to answer your call. “hey babe! Im in the middle of the class, but its alright! what can i do?” And when Sunday I’ll drive or I’ll go like in hundred kilometers just to say “Hey! its sunday uhmm… can we go to church?” And when Exams are coming and we are too busy reviewing our subjects! I will go to chapel and pray for our success – lightning a candle for guidance and wisdom.

When you are sick expect me to be there in 1 hour, just to be on your side and hold your hands saying “Tama na ang arte! bangon ka na” haha and then you will smile, I will buy fruits and cook your favorite soup to feel you better. And when you are depress like you want to cry because of challenges, I’ll be there for you and we will make that day the best day of our lives. I will always tell you to Smile because my day is complete when i see you smiling.
And when you are tired, use my shoulder as a pillow and take your rest for awhile. And Im sorry if your right hand is numbing, for not letting your hand at rest I just want to hold your hands like in everyday, I just want to feel you safe when you are with me. Maybe I should practice or enroll to a voice lesson class, so that when your bored or mad I will sing a Corniest song for you, and then you laugh and smile. And maybe I should practice more music instrument and master it so that in case you need a reliever I’ll be there to play a music.

Maybe I should be ready to have a Hepatitis! because we will enjoy the street foods of Manila and drink all the “Palamig” and be ready to get Fat but its okay Babe! You are always beautiful to me, even if you have wrinkles or pimples you are still beautiful, even if you farted in a huge crowd still I love you.

Maybe I should be ready to have a Criminal Case for Slander or Cyber Crime Law for defending you in case someone is harassing you. And be in Jail for owing your violations or errors. In short, prepare to go to prison sometimes.

Im not a good actor but If you beat me I will act like it doesnt hurt. And I will give the sweetest lines in your favorite movies just to feel my company.

I’ll buy more sneakers sometimes, because when we are together and your feet hurts, you can exchange my shoes for you to get better.

And when you feel cold, I’ll hug you instead of giving you my coat.

And when you feel like I’m not interested to you anymore… Dont think that way because even if I’m not in your sight I always thinking of you and still love you.

to my future Girlfriend, I know you Im not that looking guy you wanted, but promise you I’ll be the better and fit guy of your life. The time I have given, the Effort I worked, and the Respect I do are the simple reason why I keep on Loving you.

I know Im afraid to take my role because of too busy in school, promise! I’ll try to be perfect just to say hello and goodnight.

To my future Girlfriend I have got the will to wait for that day. And when that day comes… I surely make your life in a state of Happiness. but for now, I need to pass the Bar Exam and be a Lawyer.

Christopher P. Taguinod
June 5, 2014
3:48pm